Thoughts on Thursday

I'm just gonna send a shout out to all the single parents I know.  I think you are amazing and wonderful.  I barely have time to breathe lately.  I don't get to play around with my twitter friends as often as I used to.  Facebook...what is that?  I am freaking out internally because my iCloud photo feed isn't working, but I just don't have time to fix it.  It is making me all kinds of nervous because the pictures I am taking aren't getting stored onto my online storage account.  Really, in the grand scheme of things it is not a big deal, but if Gary were home I'd get that extra hour to concentrate on fixing it.

Layla's homework reading tonight was a cute book about dinosaurs.  Tonight after she finished reading she was so proud when she realized she read 64 pages.  I love listening to her read.  I can't believe I have a child old enough to read.  I know it's cheesy, but really they do grow so fast!

Evenings after the kids got to bed I have such high hopes for blogging and looking at twitter and pinterest.  Whoooaaa!  I'm so dang dog tired.  I just want to go to bed!  I can't wait for Gary to get home so we can split the chores again.  I was spoiled by a man who cooked, cleaned and we split the homework and reading duties for the night.  Doing it all is awesomely exhausting.  

This little dude is so funny!  He only changed clothes 4 times today.  Usually he changes into at least 10 different outfits a day, but we went out today.  We had lunch with friends and then played at the park.  Thankfully that saved me a few outfit changes.   Did I tell you we cut the fingers off an old mitten?  It is his rock n roll glove.  He thinks he is the coolest kid ever when he wears that thing. 

I am so tired of keeping this house spic 'n span.   I hope that doesn't sound gross, but I am a perfectionist. If I'm gonna show my house to a potential buyer I want this place to be spotless.  Honestly though I think my kids are going insane.  Don't get me wrong, we always clean up their rooms and playrooms at the end of the day everyday. That hasn't changed, but I think the kids are irritated when they can't leave puzzles out.  They can't leave the Lego world they are building out on the playroom floor.  Well, you know what?!?  I am done with being such a stickler for toys out.  I'm making myself and my kids nuts.  If this house is not selling it isn't because Legos and books are lying around.  

I just want everything to be perfect, but I am making the house clean even when there isn't a showing.  I have finally looked at things right now from a different view.  I realized...sometimes I get so into life that I forget to look at the big picture.  I want to control everything, but I can't.  I don't want my kids to look back at the time before we moved to Ohio and remember how crazy I was.  Make sense?  They will just remember I was going nuts over here.  So,  I'm over it.  I'm stepping off the house cleaning warden soapbox.  The house will be just fine!

I'm not sure why, but suddenly I realized I was making myself crazy with worry over every little detail of this move.  When will the house sell?  What day will we call the mover?  What day will Layla start her new school?  What house will we rent?  Will we have to rent this house?  Where will we be for Halloween   I just spend weeks worrying about things out of my control and then something snapped.  I feel like I've been acting like a doofus, but the wake up call is just what I needed.  Every little thing is gonna be alright!

And now I am going to watch Grey's Anatomy!